Challenge accepted

It’s been a few months since I officially finished up on site. I am going through the motions of plotting what’s next and exploring both Plans A and B, because you know, multitasking and all that.

I am fairly certain that anyone who has been in a similar situation can relate to the gamut of emotions I have experienced in the last couple of months.  There was the initial stress of the unplanned resignation due to the unfortunate circumstance. Nothing about that was aligned with my career master plan. Although I have never been a Type A planner, it still didn’t sit well with me that things were going down which I was not 100% happy with. But, I had to ride the wave of change. Hey, these unplanned things happen for a reason right?

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Plan B(aking)

After the initial stress, there was the “woohoo spare time” phase. This is the – oh yeah, I can sleep in and binge watch Netflix, be Homer Simpson for a few days mindset. It was fun while it lasted but man, did it got boring pretty quick. Really quick actually! I have always prided myself on my ability to relax and do nothing. Even when I was juggling full time work and study for my Masters, I always found time each week to have a recharge day, a nothing day. I learned very quickly that nothing days are much better when they are not every day. I was surprised when I realised nothing weeks aren’t as good. See, we really do learn something new every day.

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I promise you, it never got this bad. I use a laptop…

Thankfully the WIMWA mentoring program started just as the nothing days and Seek trawling were getting mentally and emotionally draining. During the launch event, I realised I needed to sharpen my networking skills. I had no major issues meeting people on site, talking to anyone about anything and building relationships but I have always been a bit slow to warm up. Most of the time, I choose to sit back and observe first. I can hold my own once I have developed relationships and gotten to know people a bit more. The getting to you know/introduction part on the other hand, has always been a tad daunting for me. No one who knows me believes it when I tell them that on the Myers-Briggs personality test, I identify as an introvert. Having been a Psychology student at one time, we did a lot of these tests and my results were consistent – introvert.

 

The day after the launch I decided I needed to sharpen my networking skills and set myself a challenge. I approached it in the same way I approached my fear of heights issue the whole time I was on site – you just have to do it. Get out there and just hang on to dear life when the fear becomes overwhelming, you will survive. That’s what I tell myself anyway. Since the launch in July, I signed up and attended several networking events, workshops and volunteer opportunities. Most I attended on my own; sometimes a brave friend comes along. I haven’t had to bribe anyone yet, so I haven’t reached desperation levels.

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All part of my ongoing research. Any recommendations?

What cracks me up, is that even now – after having attended a number of events on my own, I still have the same thought process the minute I walk into the venue: “what the heck are you doing now?!” I know I will survive and end up meeting wonderful new people because I did at the last one I attended. So why do I still think this way? It takes a while for mindset to change, but I am hoping I can successfully reprogram mine in the next two or three events. Although, I find that the initial sense of trepidation also works like a catapult because what follows the “what the heck…” is a very determined “you are here, you made it, now smile and talk to that person over there!”

Last week I attended the WIMWA Summit. I went on my own because simply, I wanted to go but no one in my immediate circle was keen to join me. It made no sense to miss out because I had to go on my own, so whatever, I went.

I had been so excited about attending since purchasing the ticket a couple of months beforehand. As with majority of the big decisions I have made over the years, I just leap. When I moved from Melbourne to Perth, I jumped at the chance. I got a job, had three days to pack and move. Let’s do this! Same thing when I decided to be a process operator a few years ago. I really didn’t think about what if it doesn’t work out. Why wouldn’t it work out? I was going to make it work! With the operator caper, I only found out months after being on site that a few site based colleagues who I met whilst I was a recruiter were worried about me fitting in on site. How did I found out? When they told me; with much relief, after they saw me hold my own with the crew and everyone else on site. Not one item on their list of concerns even crossed my mind because in my head, it was going to work because I was going to do my best to make it work. So I got my tickets and didn’t even consider what if I end up looking like a dork going on my own!

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I really hope these boots don’t stay clean for too long!

Aside from the “what the heck” when I enter the venue, another thing I noticed since embarking on this self imposed challenge is my insane tendency to fangirl over successful people. I fangirl majorly when I come across individuals who have forged successful careers despite challenges, those whose causes, beliefs and purpose I can relate to, whose values align with mine. I cannot help but fangirl when I come across someone I respect and would want to emulate. I find myself struggling to approach these amazing people because I am too much in awe. I do not end up in tears or pass out like you see on those concert videos or news reports of fangirls meeting their celebrity idols. I honestly think my fangirling nerves come from a position of me wanting to learn so much from these accomplished individuals that I just want to stand there and absorb rather than risk asking a mundane question or embarrassing myself in another way by opening my mouth! I get a bit daft when I am nervous so I sometimes think the less I open my mouth the better. Before anyone out there tells me off for being crazy, hold up! I am working on this now! I won’t let my insane fangirling ways get in the way of getting acquainted with people I respect. I am very actively working on this and will not be making this silly mistake at next year’s Summit or other upcoming events (which I have a few already lined up)!

Back to the WIMWA Summit story! I walked in, found my name tag. Stood around, scoped out the crowd at the coffee and breakfast stations, saw everyone in their groups all chatty and happy, then the trepidation kicked in. The “what the heck” internal dialogue started, also known as the automatic negative thoughts (ANTs) – I learned that at the summit! Anyway, I took a few deep breaths, headed for the coffee station with my game face on; smiled at every single person I came across, said hello to the more receptive ones and walked into the venue with the “get on with it” track in my head.

I took two steps into the venue and someone was waving at me. As I still hadn’t consumed my coffee, my first thought was “Oh my God, I know someone here?” I cannot explain why I was surprised that I would know anyone since I knew for a fact that some fellow mentees were going to be at the event. But this lady wasn’t a fellow mentee. She was from one of the other events I had attended since I set out on this little challenge of mine. It was such a terrific way to start the day, I can guarantee that I stood up a bit straighter and my confidence was boosted from Beth just saying hello that morning.

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A different version of a “what the heck” moment. I think to this time when I start panicking over something or start feeling a bit scared. For more context – dig into the blog archives and it will make more sense.

During the breaks I touched base with fellow mentees, other people I have met previously and I also made several new connections. The speakers were inspiring. Resilience, championing change and moving the conversation forward were the key topics of the day. I was so glad I decided to attend, even with the initial trepidation in the morning, because by the end of the day my resolve was much stronger. There was a point during one of the sessions on resilience when the penny dropped for me. Giving up is not an option, I am not the only one who has had to regroup after an unplanned detour. Things may not be all rosy and fun right now but it doesn’t mean that this is the new normal. Not by a long shot!

Sadly though, it was only at the end of the Summit when I had the breakthrough realisation about how my crazy fangirl ways were hampering me. So I missed out on talking to a number of amazing people. The more their talk or career path resonated with me the scarier it was for me to go anywhere near them. I get the same feeling even with individuals I have actually spoken to in the past, I still have a sense of awe when I speak to them and worry about the things I previously mentioned. Yes, I mean the likes of Sabina (not the ballerina), my mentor and certain managers I have come across in previous roles. All of whom I have had several conversations with but I still get crazy nervous each time!

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Using the time I have wisely to plot out the next step.

Moving on from my crazy, unjustifiable hurdles; not only were the speakers at the Summit inspiring but everyone I met were equally inspiring and amazing! I told my partner I would be home by 8pm because the official function was going to finish at 7. However, I ended up going for drinks with a group of ladies and we chatted for a few more hours. I can honestly say, when I got on the train that night I was so inspired and pumped to keep going and find that next challenge because there are some amazing people (men and women) out there who have not only paved the way but are so happy to share their wins and experiences so people like me can keep at it and not give up when the going gets a bit tougher than originally planned.

As further proof that the world does work in mysterious ways; a fellow mentee and I were asked to do a presentation on networking at our next function. Now I get to share all the information I have gathered since I set myself this challenge. Although, I cannot help but wonder… was my phone or computer bugged? Hmmm….. as Miss Alanis Morissette once said:

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Riding the Changing Tide

I enjoy writing this blog, hopefully as much as you enjoy reading it. Plainly, I like being able to share my work adventures with those who are interested. Unfortunately, the last 18 months have been less than ideal and fairly whiny – for obvious reasons. As I alluded in my previous post, the tide was starting to change.

When I posted the last blog, I was on a bit of a winning streak. For the first time in forever, I was winning things, amongst them tickets to see Gary Mehigan. Being a major Masterchef fan, that was a huge deal! There was the second place hamper I took home from a raffle. I haven’t won much in my time. Unlike a colleague of mine who just wins at absolutely everything. I recall going to a breakfast event with her and a few other people from the office years ago. She had such a huge haul by the end of the two hour event she needed all six of us to cart it back to the office. For her, it wasn’t a streak; it’s just the way she rolls. For me, it doesn’t happen so often. So when it does, I celebrate and share the news!

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So much excitement!

Aside from those two, I had a couple more which still gets me excited even months after the fact. There was a recognition from Downer for assisting them in their day to day functions while I was on crusher box duties. It’s an internal recognition program for Downer employees, somehow one of the supervisors nominated me and the crews unanimously voted for me during that month. When I was informed about getting the award, I was floored and I still am. The certificate is now proudly framed and displayed in the home office. Funnily enough, the frame it is in was part of the raffle hamper. How’s that for coincidence!

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So much excitement still!

Another great win from this little dalliance with lady luck was a Department of Local Government (DLGC) scholarship for the highly esteemed Women in Mining WA (WIMWA) mentoring program.  For someone hell bent on forging a successful path in the industry, this was a huge deal. This and the Downer recognition made me realise that the path to that corner office, is definitely possible!

But as tides would have, there’s always the ebb and flow we have to live with. Once the sinus issue was sorted and the minor stress of cysts averted, it was time to head back to work. As I was sidelined for some time, I had to undergo a fitness for work check before being cleared to go back. Having not seen the inside of a gym or stairs in months, I suffered through all the requisite squats and lunges and was sore for days. Even before the muscle aches subsided, more not-so-fun news! As the wrist still wasn’t 100% healed, doctors professional opinion was to lay off pushing it too much until it’s fully healed. As there were no opportunities for me with my employer outside the manually laborious process operator world, I opted to put my dreams of an illustrious operator career on the back burner for now. As I was technically no longer fit to fulfil the duties of my role, I resigned from the process operator role. Now, I explore what’s out there.

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I may have gotten this from Google, but I am certain this was my expression after all the squats and lunges.

There were several struggleville moments. Moments where only Mulder and Scully could distract me from the absolute disappointment of having to walk away from the operator experience nursing an injury. Moments where I had no idea what was next, knowing how tight the industry is at the moment, it was very scary there for a while.  Moments when it felt like my career in the resources industry was going to go the same way as majority of Mulder and Scully’s cases – hanging, no clear resolution, filed away in a boring filing cabinet in the dungeon office.

However, even in the darkest of days, there were rays of sunshine and positivity. I am very lucky to have a great support system. Luckier even for the folks I never expected who reached out and are actively helping me with identifying what’s next. Pleasantly, I had no idea that some of those who have rallied around me would. So it’s been very encouraging to have made such great connections. Admittedly, there has also been some disappointments. You know that saying about how you find out who your real friends are when times are tough. I can tell you now, that is so very true. But in saying that I think we need these times in our lives to do a purge, cleanse and start fresh – not just with our goals but also with the people surround ourselves with and value.

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Crew dynamics have changed since this was once our mantra. July 25 will always be synonymous with Action Man and I will always dedicate time on that day to remember. 

The task on hand is to plot out what the next career challenge will be. The last few years as an operator made me realise my strengths and weaknesses. It has given me a better understanding of what I am actually capable of. Having had the opportunity to work across a few functions on site also opened my eyes to other options and possibilities.

By now you may have made the same conclusion as I have, the WIMWA mentoring opportunity couldn’t have come at a better time. Now I get the chance to be mentored by an influential and inspiring leader in the industry. The program commenced recently with an induction and launch. Although its “women in mining”, there are men involved in the program as mentors. It has been over a week since the launch and I am still on a high. It was such a different vibe to what I have grown accustomed to over the last few years. It was a very supportive, positive, encouraging environment but also challenging. It challenges you to think, to explore and to do great things, to be better.

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Really enjoying the ride right now.

Although there’s no FIFO happening at the moment, I am hoping to continue with the blog and entertain those who take the time to read it. I have a feeling what’s next will just be as exciting and awesome a ride as the last one!

Remember, we gotta take the good with the bad. Don’t forget to celebrate the wins – however small, CELEBRATE!

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Yes, I am experiencing massive rock breaker withdrawals.

 

Speaking of celebrating, I actually won something else recently; tickets to a magazine launch and a networking event for female entrepreneurs and creatives. I now simultaneously actively plot out Plan A and B. In a nutshell, very exciting times ahead for this stubborn gal, so stay tuned friends!